Thoughts that keep me up at night............

This is the face of true love. The kind of love that lasts. The kind that endures. Even Wesley and Buttercups love can not compare to Jesus's love for us. Yet, we do not want to look upon this face. Why? I, among other Jesus lovers, have been called ignorant, a sheep and close minded, just to name a few. I know a lot of us have not been good examples for Jesus. He has called us to love as He loves but that is hard! Do you want to love people that do not love you back, curse your name, insult you, even want to kill you? We screw up. We get our feelings hurt and lash out. We get on our high horse of opinions and do not act as Jesus did. Therefore, some people do not want to know Jesus because His so-called followers are a bunch of hypocrites. I am sorry. I am sorry that we show you what it is to be human and not Christ-like. We are failing at what Jesus truly called us to do: Go into all the world and preach the gospel. The only reason we should share the gospel is because we love you and want you to know the truth. How is that love "shoving down your throat God"? We get zealous because it is the truth. I want to hold on to your ankles and not let you die. But that is me being close minded, right? There a lots of different ways to heaven? Why would God send me to hell when I am a good person? Close minded...hhmmmmm. Am I close minded to think that there is a Person that loves me no matter what I have done? A Person that can free me from every addiction the world has to offer? A Person who gives fullness of joy that the world can't even compare?....Different roads to heaven is a very common belief these days, even among some who call themselves Christian. Jesus himself said He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to through Father but through Him. (John 14:6) How much simplier can you get. He did it all for free. There is nothing you have to do, accomplish, no 5 step process to get this. All you have to do is believe. Yet so many do not want to. There is another way. I can do this and I can do that. Are we not looking for the easy way everywhere? The doctor has all the answers, the scientist have all the answers, the horoscopes will tell me what to do, my fiancial advisor knows best. Always looking for someone else to tell us yet God's answer for us, we reject. I am a good person, I do not need God. Are you? There is no true good in the world other than God. Why is it wrong to be racist? Just because? Why is it wrong to murder? Well, that's just wrong...but why? Why is it wrong to hate people, talk bad about them, lie and be jealous of what they have that you don't? Is not God the one who gave us these "morals"? So, if there is no God, why are there morals? I shouldn't have to be nice to you "just because that is the right thing to do". Hmmm. The right thing to do. That is interesting.
I am not writing this as an attack. Please do not take it as one. I understand feathers can and will be ruffled. This could come across as me telling you that you are a sinner. Well, I am one too. (Romans 3:23 For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God) I am no better than anyone else here... I am writing this because I want you to know the truth. Yes, that may make me close-minded and all that other stuff but I have to tell you. I will be held accountable for not telling. Jesus began his ministry life with preaching the kingom of heaven is at hand. (Matt 4:17, 23) To mean that screams "IT'S RIGHT HERE! YOU CAN HAVE IT!! IT'S YOURS FOR FREE!!!!! Just please look so that you do not perish." Then He went about healing ALL diseases and ALL sicknesses. Why would He do that for nothing? What more can He do for you if you only believe?